I was planning on going out Friday, January 17th. Friends canceled, and I decided to stay in. Fired up Netflix, the Aaron Hernandez documentary Killer Inside was on the front page. It premiered Wednesday, January 15th, on the streaming service. I noticed it was multiple episodes. One hour each. I said to myself I would check out the first 15 minutes of the first chapter. If it didn't grab me, I'd go with something else.
Three hours later, I was glued to the TV as this well-done mini-series hooked me. This documentary covers the man's life, his talent, his legal trouble, and unfortunate suicide.
The program eludes to several factors which caused Mr. Hernandez's downfall. Those being:
-victim to child abuse
-never admitting that he was a gay man
-Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy(CTE)
-witnessing his father abusing his mother after he'd been drinking excessively
-being raised strictly by a homophobic father
-losing his father at the age of 16
-his mother having a boyfriend live with their family shortly after-potentially not fully grieving his father's passing.
-moving to live with his cousin and considering her his mother figure.
All of this causing:
-violent outbursts
-supposedly silencing others who found out, what presumably was his deplorable secret
-paranoia
-criminal activity
-suicide
What if he had someone to talk to? Someone, he can safely tell everything. Would his life have taken a different turn?
Disclosing old hurt, feelings we consider shameful is tough. I find it easier to do now in my 40s than I ever could in my 20s. That being Aaron's age group.
My biggest takeaway from this mini-series; journaling and therapy can go a long way in healing past pain and hurt.
If there are bad habits/behaviors you are trying to stop in the new year, ask yourself, why do I act this way? Did this naturally come to me, or was it something I learned from friends or parents? You might be surprised.
Here's a trailer for the documentary.
Find out more about Aaron Hernandez here. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aaron_Hernandez
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