I was planning on going out Friday, January 17th. Friends canceled, and I decided to stay in. Fired up Netflix, the Aaron Hernandez documentary Killer Inside was on the front page. It premiered Wednesday, January 15th, on the streaming service. I noticed it was multiple episodes. One hour each. I said to myself I would check out the first 15 minutes of the first chapter. If it didn't grab me, I'd go with something else.
Three hours later, I was glued to the TV as this well-done mini-series hooked me. This documentary covers the man's life, his talent, his legal trouble, and unfortunate suicide.
The program eludes to several factors which caused Mr. Hernandez's downfall. Those being:
-victim to child abuse
-never admitting that he was a gay man
-Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy(CTE)
-witnessing his father abusing his mother after he'd been drinking excessively
-being raised strictly by a homophobic father
-losing his father at the age of 16
-his mother having a boyfriend live with their family shortly after-potentially not fully grieving his father's passing.
-moving to live with his cousin and considering her his mother figure.
All of this causing:
-supposedly silencing others who found out, what presumably was his deplorable secret
What if he had someone to talk to? Someone, he can safely tell everything. Would his life have taken a different turn?
Disclosing old hurt, feelings we consider shameful is tough. I find it easier to do now in my 40s than I ever could in my 20s. That being Aaron's age group.
My biggest takeaway from this mini-series; journaling and therapy can go a long way in healing past pain and hurt.
If there are bad habits/behaviors you are trying to stop in the new year, ask yourself, why do I act this way? Did this naturally come to me, or was it something I learned from friends or parents? You might be surprised.
Here's a trailer for the documentary.
Find out more about Aaron Hernandez here. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aaron_Hernandez